You always hear that the older you the get faster the time goes by. And although I can think of a few scenarios where that doesn't hold true, it is definitely the case for me. Today is October 1, 2011. Not only has the  year been flying by but it also makes me more aware of how fast the last few years has gone by. In just over a month my little man will be 5! I can still remember finding out that I was pregnant. I can still see the hospital room where I had him. I can picture the party we had for his first birthday. And yet, he is a kid now. A very smart, fun, handsome KID. I look back a photos taken only a year ago and he still looks like a baby. You know, round face and chubby checks. It's amazing how much kids change in such short amounts of time. I sometimes wonder how it must feel like for my parents, or grandparents. Having seen their own children grow up, and watching grand- and great grandchildren grow up now. I wonder if we weren't so focused on time, as a society, if maybe it wouldn't feel the same. We are always waiting for something, looking forward to something that is supposed to happen at a future time and we miss the small moments. We put ourselves on a bullet train to the future even though we know we can't go backwards. I try very hard to not  to do that, but it is so hard, especially when R is gone, which unfortunately is far too often.

You know what?? I think i'm going to try to change my outlook on this. I'm going to try to literally enjoy every moment. Forget about the things that do not matter and the people that just bring others down. I wonder if my perception of time will change after that. After all, perception is reality. Guess we shall see....